How The Death of My Ex-Boyfriend Changed Me
“I was looking for the love he gave me in every new relationship I encountered.”
It was a hot summer day in 2017. I was craving jerk chicken from this new local spot called “Dat Jerk”. Little did I know I would soon be meeting the love of my life.
From the moment I walked into the store, I felt someone’s eyes gazing at me from the cash register. I continued to look straight ahead. The restaurant was set up like a Chipotle, so I got to the counter and ordered my usual jerk chicken, rice and peas, with cabbage. After your order is ready, they pass it to the cashier. I walked over to the cash register and locked eyes with the man that was staring at me from the moment I walked into the store. As he rang up my food, he says “You’re so beautiful, can I take you out?”
I chuckled and said, “No, you’re too short for me.” So shallow. At that point in my life, I was on the verge of giving up on love, so I didn’t take anything any guy said to me seriously. After being rude, the man proceeds to say, “I can wear timberlands when I’m with you.” I felt so bad at that point and knew he wasn’t even my type. So I said sorry, grabbed my food, and left the store.
A month later, I went back to Dat Jerk for lunch, and to my surprise, the same man was working that day. Only this time, he was the person I had to order from. As he brought my food back to me, he asked for my number. It was something about the way he looked into my eyes that made me want to give it a chance. I mean, after all, he wasn’t that short, I just never dated a guy the same height as me.
So, I gave it a chance…
He scurried and pulled his phone out and took my number down as I paid for my food.
That night, he called me, and we talked for hours. We had so much more in common than I imagined. Great conversation. From that point on, we became inseparable. We grew in love in a matter of weeks.
We laughed, partied, and spent time with each other’s families. When we would have disagreements, his sister would be our mediator. He always taught me to never go to bed angry with each other. I was always so stubborn.
In such a short amount of time, this was the greatest love I’ve ever known. He made me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. He made me feel that, despite my flaws, he would love me no matter what. For the first time in my life, I knew what it felt like to be loved, unconditionally.
He was the sweetest soul.
Sure, everyone has a past, but I was willing to look beyond it all when It came to our love.
I feel like the problem in today’s world is that everyone is SUPER shallow. Everybody has this stupid checklist of their perfect person. Waiting for them to fall from the sky with no flaws in sight.
He was far from perfect, but the love we shared was real. He taught me the true meaning of unconditional love.
The death of my ex-boyfriend changed me because I no longer search for perfection in anyone. I don’t expect everyone to have their entire lives mapped out from the moment we meet. I accept everyone for who they are. Not only that, but I no longer believe in holding grudges. Communication is always key.
The day I lost my ex-boyfriend, I lost a piece of my heart, I will never be the same. To this day, I haven’t felt the love he gave me from anyone else.
“Life becomes more clear when you look at peoples hearts instead of their faces.”
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